Dear The Maine,
by
Felly.
- 4:51 AM
I know that you guys are having family emergency and I'm really sorry to hear that and I wish that everything is fine but I really hate to say that I have lost my trust to you guys.
The Maine means a lot to me, I have been a fan ever since I was in 7th grade, which is in about 2010/2011 and I've been a fan for 4 years and in those time I have a good times. You guys always have your way with your music, I always found myself fascinated with the magic of your music, I feel happy and sad listening your songs. more importantly I just feel your music gets me personally, it's a good thing because nobody else, no other musician ever have songs fitted perfectly for situations in my life.
I even promised myself that I wouldn't want to spend way too much money investing on another band/musician than you guys.
And that's why when I heard the Maine is coming to Indonesia, I was so happy. I'm a student, I'm eighteen and I don't live in Jakarta, I live in a city called Surabaya which is in the east of the Java. And my parents didn't really agree with me going out to Jakarta just for the sake of concert, I've been trying to get their permission for years, and this is the first time they actually let me go, because I said that I'm going to pay all of the expenses, that include the transportation, accommodation, tickets, and expenses there.
In August I prepared everything, I already booked flight to Jakarta and bought the tickets. I was so stocked to see you guys, I know some people I know will watch it and I'm looking forward to meet them. I was happy, I thought it will be great.
And 10 days before the show everything fall apart. I thought that it was a joke when the promoter said that the Indonesian show will be cancelled because of 'travelling issue' shit that haven't been explained up until now. Someone said that it might be because the sales is not that great, God knows what is the real reason. I'm heartbroken, did you know that I will skip school and go out of town and I have asked permission to the teacher that is one of the hardest person to meet at school? And to cancel the permission thing, it's not even funny.
It was heartbreaking when I read the updates of concerts in Brazil and Singapore. It should be me there, in the crowd, singing and having the time of my life. But well, the only place that have travel issues seems like Indonesia.
Moreover, the promoter said that you will be back in November. I still have a hope, I was wavering between changing the date to Clean Bandit in December or The Maine in November. But I got another thing to consider: It is most likely the week of final exam in school but I didn't know when is the exact date. I can't decide until the final day, or I will lose all of my money on the plane tickets.
I'm saving money from bits by bits, from little work that I have done, and losing that much money is new to me.
Finally, I decided to put my trust in you guys, even though there's no detail or anything regarding the festival, I only know the date, I trust you. Because The Maine means a lot to me, I get your song personally. Once, I was having a total breakdown, you have no idea how bad it is and your song is the one who help me through. I always love John, I want to hear his voice live. And I do believe that you guys aren't like the rest of the people, you won't let us down.
I guess I hope too much. Because, like all people, they will let you down.
At last, I got the news. Even though it's in the weekend, I still have exam on Monday. I have a little trust issue so I arranged everything from the ticket buying and the accommodation within this week. In fact, just yesterday and just this afternoon I bought the ticket and booked the accommodation. Just this afternoon, when I heard that the other artist that is going to play this weekend from US is already leaving, but I haven't heard any news from The Maine.
I started to worry. I mentioned the maine and everyone.
I couldn't even concentrate on studying for tomorrow's test, in fact, up until now I haven't finished studying. And the news is out. I feel numb, to be honest. Like part of me is expecting for this to happen, because just yesterday my mum talked to me about the possibility of them not playing. Somehow, I thought she was being paranoid, but it turns out to be true. You guys let me down, for the second time. In this year, after all of the sacrifices that I have made, it's all in vain. I'm disappointed and I have to say... I might not watching your next show in Indonesia if there's any (sorry, but please consider all other Indonesian fans, in numbers there might not as much as in Brazil or US but they still take you guys personally) especially if it require this much sacrifice and will ended up being cancelled very close to the day. After 10 days, now 2 days, I lost my ability to feel sad.
I just feel that everything is really ironic. I mean after the free for all tour in US I think of you guys very highly, you're real musician who don't just take away people's money as much as you can. And I feel ironic now and then how much I'm willing to pay but it ends up in this way. I'm sorry if I sounds like I put the blame in you guys, I donr have any intention to do it. Honestly I also lost trust in the promoter as well. I would appreciate if you guys said that you're not playing a show at all here rather than saying yes you would play a show yet cancel in in two days before the day. But the thing is please never do this again. Not twice, I know you must been through a lot there in US but please consider us as well, you let a hundred of people down. There might be not only me who come from outside Jakarta.
All of these time, people are people. People let me down, even the one who I thought wouldn't do it.
Well, I'm sorry but I must stress that I can't trust you anymore. Unless you make it up to me, but I'm just a fan of yours, nobody that you would notice. Well, I'm fine on my own. Please do a show sometime in Indonesia, I don't know if I might be there or I still have my saving to be there, but do it for the rest of the Indonesian fan. And don't cancel it again. Hope you guys are doing well and will have everything fine, hope you're having fun in Australia. :)
Love,
Felly.
P.S. due the overwhelming reponse from people. I want to apologize if you say this is rude, or shitty or whatever you prefer. I was just disappointed at that time, after all the condition that we, Indonesian fans have been through. I completely understand the family emergency situation. And i understand that they are human as well, I'm just expressing my opinion and last night I realise that I still care about them, it is completely normal to feel disappointed after 2x cancellation(i'm not a regular concert attender, i could count the concert that i have been in one hand). They mean a lot to me. I will not take down this blogpost, and I would prefer if you stop bashing me on twitter because it is hard enough for me to see them cancelled, i dont need people bashing me on twitter. I hope you understand how I feel along wih the rest of Indonesian fans, thank you.